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Was there ever a winter so cold and so sad?
I feel a little unhappy right now, and I have no good reason for it. OK, I have a big to-do list, but I have already DONE some of it. I have also conquered a bunch of stuff at work, and my training sessions are going pretty well. My personal life is no more dire than it ever is. Mom isn't any crazier than she normally is. Nothing in particular is wrong. And I'm enjoying the hell out of Facebook.* I've been thinking about my past and my future, and none of that is stressing me out, so WTF, body? Why the sadness?
I guess it could just be the winter. It feels very long this year. I feel like it's sucking the energy and life out of me. I really need a vacation; I know I had two weeks off at Christmas, but it's just not enough. I didn't go away during that time, so it doesn't really count in the recharging batteries sense.
I think also it could be because I've been surfing realtor sites looking for apartments, and some of them are kind of awesome and I want to move in right now (NOW!) but I can't. Perhaps it's general ennui and impatience and being stuck in limbo. I need to do something soon to jolt myself out of it. Damnable February. I'm always like this in February. Soon there will be baseball. Then all will be better.
How are you dealing with this season? Any tips?
todo list february 2009
wash other coats
do lots of laundry
buy jewelry cleaner
clean jewelry
schedule mammogram
schedule sam visit
schedule dentist
schedule eyes
schedule doctor
post reviews
print out tax forms and file with other tax info
wash white coat
update iphone pix
update iphone music
order new coat
buy new socks, underwear
organize spreadsheet for new year
clean out email
clean out notebooks
clean out bookmarks
organize and back up electronic files
buy extension cord for space heater
replace printer
set up new phones
get small pill cases for bags
use ikea credit
use bbb credit
record receipts, discard
* I have someone on my Facebook friends' list who was my very best friend in junior high, but then I moved away and never really saw her again. And I found my pseudo-little brother, who I last hung out with when he was in his early teens (he's 35 now). How cool is THAT?
I guess it could just be the winter. It feels very long this year. I feel like it's sucking the energy and life out of me. I really need a vacation; I know I had two weeks off at Christmas, but it's just not enough. I didn't go away during that time, so it doesn't really count in the recharging batteries sense.
I think also it could be because I've been surfing realtor sites looking for apartments, and some of them are kind of awesome and I want to move in right now (NOW!) but I can't. Perhaps it's general ennui and impatience and being stuck in limbo. I need to do something soon to jolt myself out of it. Damnable February. I'm always like this in February. Soon there will be baseball. Then all will be better.
How are you dealing with this season? Any tips?
todo list february 2009
- return library books
- roll coins
- update facebook:
- books
- interests
- movies
- music
- books
- home
- work
- music
- books
- photos
- other files
* I have someone on my Facebook friends' list who was my very best friend in junior high, but then I moved away and never really saw her again. And I found my pseudo-little brother, who I last hung out with when he was in his early teens (he's 35 now). How cool is THAT?
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Whenever I see a list of someone else's lying around, I like to add things to it. For your list, I want to add:
* bake cookies for Debbie
* bake cookies for self
* bake cookies for Patrick and Mom
* take pictures of recipes
And under electronic files to organize and back up:
* recipes
* movies
As for how I'm dealing with this season, I'm afraid it's of no help to you. Pretty much no matter what the weather is like, no matter how bad and no matter how awesome, I tell myself that this is why I live in Austin. (Yesterday it was in the upper 70s and I found flowers blooming. And our idea of really bad weather is still above 20 degrees!)
When things are sucking the life and energy out of me, I like to sing along with music for short-term happiness (quick fix), and I like to set up things to look forward to for a longer-term fix. (But maybe you like getting mammograms.)
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You Austinites are so damned smug. It's all warm and sunshiney and flowery and whatever. Feh! IN THE REAL WORLD, we have snow and ice and wind and cold. When you're whining about 120 degrees in the shade next summer I'll have to remind you of this. :-)
I use music the same way -- I drove around for a few hours last week signing at the top of my lungs in the car (don't want to scare people away) and I've been obsessively playing music all week. Still kinda sad! Will try setting up for the longer term fix. Just gotta think how...
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Sorry, I don't feel smug. I just feel so damned lucky. And don't remind me about the summer, please! It's still walkable outside now!
Fun activities... More projects. Or events. Or things to work up to. That sort of thing. And not just organizing but making something or learning something or getting better at something or entering something.
Also, I remembered exercise is supposed help.
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I'm trying to cover the blahs with projects & plans. Projects which are low-stakes, like this podcast thing and writing some silly plays, and plans, such as trying to figure out a good place to go for a vacation.
We're not going to see baseball in-person until May. Should we check Stubhub for something earlier? :)
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I've been too busy this winter to let the weather get to me. Between one thing and another I just don't have time to be moody. And when I do find a few minutes to angst in, something interrupts me...
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